Butterfly Garden

The End of Heartache

These distances…
These disillusions…
I cling to memories…
While falling…
Sleep brings relief…
And the hope of a new day…
Waking the misery…
Of being without you…

Surrender…
I give in…
A moment… yes another eternity…
Seek me for comfort…
Call me for solace…
I’ll be waiting…
For the end of my broken heart…
Completion…
I’ll be waiting…
For the end of my broken heart…

You know me…
You know me all too well…
My only desire…
For you to believe me…

In sorrow…
I speak your name…
And my voice mirrors my torment…

Ties that Bind

Trapped…
Nothingness…
Sorrow… Agony…
But still…
Give myself…
To you…
Wait…
Cling to hope…
Even unattainable…
My desire…
My wish…
To be with you…
Hope…
Understand…
I…
Body trembles…
Voice shakes…
Linger…
Only thing to do…
Stand for you…
Even…
Uncared for…
Stalling…
Petrified…
Light…
You…
I…
Need…
Love…
Everything…
You…
Only…
Impossible…

~kEiL~

Reflection

I see your eyes…
Full of sorrow…
Full of pain…
I see it all…
All in your eyes…
I wish…
I wish to cure the grief…
I wish that I could do a thing…

-kEiL-

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Broken Glass

why?!
everything was perfect…
everything…
but still…
you ruined it!
who will I cling to now?

-kEiL-

Butterfly Carnival

Perfect…
Everything…
It is all…
All because of you…
I wish that I…
That I could be the one…
The one…
The one you truly care for…
And I want to say thank you…
For making my life worth living again…

-kEiL-
cherry blossoms

now is the time…
to tell you…
this is the only way to do this…
because now…
i feel i can’t get through to you…
but please listen…
it will be alright if you keep eluding me…
it doesn’t matter…
i can’t blame you if you feel that way…
but i promise you this: i’ll stay here…
just right here…
so if ever you’ll need me…
i’ll be just right here…
this is the only way i feel alive…
i am really sorry…
for feeling this way for you…
i feel you get irritated whenever i get close…
that is why i will be just right here…
call me overdramatic or overemotional or whatever you want…
but my words will remain…
forever…

-kEiL-

dawn of dreams

the darkness is over…
the anguish…
the suffering…
now…
we pretend…
we never met…
never…
i’ll be blissful…
very much…
because of her…
i can now…
finally leave you behind…

-kEiL-

ears for Fears

Trepidation strikes my heart…
Falling… Falling… Falling…
I…
Round and around I fall…
Dirge! Weep! Scream!
All that I could do…
Who would cry for me?!
Nobody…
I stand alone…
Buried in darkness…
Tortured in nothingness…
Breaking in two…
Obscure is everything…
Everything is obscure…
The world I hate…
Myself that I despise…
Feel everything I feel!
Let me live once again…

~kEiL~

Tomorrow for Us?

How could you take my tomorrow away from me??
And even after that, you remain unaffected.
You crushed my dream, my happiness!
It all started with a lie.
A lie I thought was real.
But what did I do to deserve this?
Everything was for naught!
How stupid of me.
I let you fool me twice.
Don’t ever think that everything will be the same after this.
Don’t ever ask for my help.
There will never be a tomorrow for us!
Never!

-kEiL-

until the end of time

everything…
soon…
everything will be perfect…
I hope…
I’ll wait…
for you…
even until the end of time…

-keil

Vermillion

See my affections touch across time…
Feel my sorrow…
Hear my scream…
End my heartache…
Please…
Are you real??
Are you??
I remember…
Your hand was the one…
The one I once held…
But it just faded away…
Faded into nothingness…
You…
Look at me now…
Trapped…
Between darkness and light…
Will I remain buried deep??
Or do I have a chance??
To hold your hand once again…
Wishing it would be real…

~kEiL~

You

You gave me life…
when no one was there
you gave me hope…
when no one would care
you gave me strength…
when I was weak
you gave me love…
only you could keep
you gave me a chance…
and someone to hold
you healed my heart…
and cured my fears
you healed my scars…
and wiped my tears
you gave me everything…
why should I ask for more?

-kEiL-

Fiction We Live

I wanted to have a place in your heart…
I wanted to be new… by you…
But I hope it’s not just a game…
So that I will never cry again…

I have countless measures of time… just for you…
Everything is for you…
It’s all what I want to do…
Even if time rises against… I’ll never leave your side…

But what if you will be the one to leave me behind??
What will be my sacrifices for??
I don’t want to weep all night…
And to be left behind again…

I thank you…
For saving me from the depths of loneliness…
Look…
I love you… I really do…

-kEiL-

Deep In My Slumber

a nightmare? Or a dream?
it was so silent…
so blue…
I was drifting, drifting…
drifting to you…

-kEiL-Misty Sunshine

A space between a blink and a tear…
Caught between darkness and light…
Will I bloom once more??
Or will I remain perished??

A day of endless agony…
A night of Sinclair misery…
Is this all that remains??
Is pain the only thing I feel??

Are you a dream??
Or just another nightmare??
Will I move on??
Or will I die again??

Can you see right through me??
Or am I just another blurry moon??
Questions only you can answer…
Only you…

-keil-

Dreams

I lay down at night
And try to sleep
But all I do
Is think of you and weep

I try and forget
About these feelings for you
You’re what I’m thinking about
It’s all I seem to do

Then when sleep does come
You’re the one I’m dreaming of
And in my dreams
You and I are in love

O, how I hate to dream
Because I know it isn’t true
And I know deep down
I’ll never be loved by you

We’ll just stay friends
In this reality
I know in my heart
You could never love me

But that doesn’t stop
The way I feel
I’ll always wish
Dreams were real

-keil-

desperately

things have changed…
everything…
but why??
i still want you so desperately…
i don’t want this!
i don’t want to suffer anymore…
this is tearing me apart…

-keil-

~poYoyoiNgK~

When you said that you love me,

I hope that you will see,

A part of me is thee

There are secrets inside of me.

Now is the time to choose

Who will be the one to lose?

Who is the one my heart boosts?

Him or you?

~ghe~

For You
You came

My life has never been the same

Yet, sometimes, I think it’s just a game

Sorry, I’m the one to blame.

So many stories to share, so little time

We’ll never know why

The time just passes us by

A couple of months from now, you’ll bid goodbye.

Even if you’re miles away

Your presence will always stay

Every night, I will pray

That He will guide you all the way.

Always remember, I’m always here

Willing to listen and cast away your fears

I’m hoping that our closeness will be, oh so clear

Cause you are so dear.

I want to say thank you

For putting away the blues

I think I’m falling for you

But, I am still finding other clues.

~ghe~